2009-11-23
12:23 a.m.

Again, I left the journal entry open in Word again… I imagine it wasn’t read because she has no reason to open that up… but well, I wonder if she’ tell me if she read it.

We’ve had some problems her and I, going on two years or more. Intimacy problems that I have not been terribly proactive fixing, and she has developed something of a martyr complex where she thinks she has done everything. Then, when I try to make an actual concrete plan to talk about it, giving her any day next week, she won’t commit in case her friends call to do something. In her defense, she has been terribly worried about finding friends since we arrived here, and that has caused her to really cherish any and all time spent with friends.

But really, can she complain about my lack of commitment and then deny me a real time/place to have the discussions we need to have.

Really.

I should be far more proactive, but she could meet me halfway in this case.

Is what I think.

A-S